That's how it felt last night anyway.
PS - this is a long post. The TL;DR (Too Long; Didn't Read) version is: life right now is overwhelming, and I continue to learn how to not stress.
Anyway, yesterday morning it became clear it was an ear infection - I didn't realize ear infections could progress so quickly overnight.
We started antibiotics, but he kept trying to scratch his ear - especially last night. I finally fell asleep with him pinned under my arm so he couldn't scratch. Investing in a neck cone would've been helpful.
**Remind me to invest in some matches and a battery powered alarm clock!**
Work crews today
Oh, did I mention that our ensuite shower also cracked last week? Today we have someone coming to pull out our fiberglass shower and remove all the surrounding tile. We haven't been able to use our shower in the meantime.
And our kitchen currently isn't functional. We haven't been able to use our kitchen sink, and it's an obstacle course trying to navigate around industrial fans and the stove in the middle of our kitchen.
Yesterday I found a lot of comfort in reading through Job and Psalms.
“Naked I came from my mother’s womb,
and naked I will depart.
The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away;
may the name of the Lord be praised.”
I don't think this is the happy Sunday morning type of worship though. My understanding is that he's acknowledging that nothing he had was ever his own to begin with, or something he deserved. Everything he'd had was a gift from God. Who was Job to feel like those were his entitlements? I think Job is also acknowledging that God is mighty, and that he is very small next to God and His plans.
Don't get me wrong, Job then curses the day he was born and begs God to end his life. The book has 42 chapters, filled with Job grieving. But Job always keeps the attitude that everything he lost was never his to begin with. God never owed him good health or a painless life.
But still, the image of losing everything, and then falling to the ground in worship, really strikes me.
the world, and all who live in it;
for he founded it on the seas
and established it on the waters.
I've never experienced starvation. I've never been without shelter. I don't know what it's like to not have clean water to drink. I have access to free healthcare.
I have an amazing husband, wonderful friends/family, a beautiful home/neighbourhood, an awesome church, a ridiculous dog...
How many people in the world would give almost anything to just have one of those things? How many people at this moment are worrying about finding food to eat? And here I am stressing about expensive house repairs???
Thinking about that allowed me to finally fall asleep, happily sandwiched between my snoring husband and snoring dog.